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Saturday, December 27, 2014
White Light
Life is checkered shade or sunshine, joy or sorrow with one often following upon the wheels of another. These emotions are personal, often affecting both men or women in varying degrees of intensity. The tragic and the absurd seem to be built into our time and into the human being. We are affected by them. They are personal to us. Hopefully however we are able to cope with the tragic because the possibility of hope helps one to accept. Hope beckons us on to the white light which is our salvation. We live with the absurdity of our times but we realize that life also contains a large element of joy. Personally accepting life's complexities, we often are strengthened and become more compassionate people. Circa 1982.
Thursday, November 27, 2014
All this Beauty
From a plane.
1. Mt. peaks snow clouds and serene, full of stars.
2.
Lakes of darkness, dotted with tiny lights.
3.
City – a golden glow diffusing itself thru the
smog. Hung between heaven and earth.
Beautifully unreal.
As the plane started its upward ascent, I looked down to a scene of unsurpassable beauty, New York City with its millions of many colored lights was a glittering and moving mosaic. The higher we ascended, the less glittering it became until it was at last only a sea of darkness. When we approached Boston, a golden glow diffused itself thru the smog until the same glow of varied colors of light appeared as we saw when leaving New York. This trip had a strange relaxing effect on me, all this beauty was like a strong tranquilizing drug. Soon I saw my son with Tom C. waiting for me - what a joy to see him again. He insisted I stop at his dream place, restored {illegible} where he had worked so hard all summer long to reopen this learning place for disabled young people.
Suddenly a woman, flashlight in hand, comes up the path checking lights in one of the restored buildings. Since I had come from Morocco to a very cold Massachusetts, I was too cold to explore with them. I was sent to the beautiful old home to warm myself. It was at first glance a store house for antiques, I noted sets of silver haphazardly displayed on sideboards. The stairway an unusual one had steps coming from both sides, meeting at a landing on second floor. The little room where I sat was cozy with its open fireplace. The kitchen a large one, had a row of windows extending length of one wall. All in disarray with no attempt to create beauty from such a conglomeration of things.
circa 1976.
Saturday, November 22, 2014
One week.
November 10.
Waited for Carol up at 6:30- signals mixed. Going by bus when Helen P., seated with me at bus stop son picked us up - Charleroi. (Looked at gray slacks - will be cheaper). Home at 11:15. Rained (misty). Stopped in Jeans. Pat called James and Grace at 11. Told him not to come to Eileen's, leaving on Sunday. Johnnys. Daddy much more amenable today.
November 11.
Mass at 11. Met Dona T. still as I do, ache for our two children (mass for Dave T.). Janet with her 2 boys was there. Called - talked to Ilsa. Dora visited. Lil there. Rosy called. Must call Dr. tomorrow.
November 12.
Armistice Day. Some schools closed. Rose, Joe, Mark came about 10. Joe fired in stove, burners on stove - cleaned it. Rose went to Foodland ($76), about $10 reduction with coupons. Is there a shortage of jobs here? Toy City booming. Called Amy on her birthday, talked to Suzy and Erin. Called Katy - talked to Heidi - Katy helping Matt with home work. (Get toy tomorrow for him.) Called Rosy--in den ironing. P., Mark watching television. Joey's first basketball game.
November 13.
Brighter, warmer. Bought Transformer at Toy City (15). Brought in more dahlia bulbs - some were getting soft (might be slugs), sprayed some. Others had earthworms attached, much healthier. Sent letters to Katy and Michael. Called Dora- spent day taking care of her knee. Felt fine otherwise. 50th anniversary celebration of Donald Duck. How remarkable the artists are who make these animated pictures! Lutheran Min. from Carrick sentenced to 90 days in jail - broke law.
Night Dream.
Ann, dressed in a brownish tweed suit, taking me in her car (another passenger) came to a section of road with red blinking lights - she reduced speed - stopped.
Next I was placed in a maze with no exit. (Sartre's No Exit). I ran from one section to another, no Ann.
Later outside with Ann, continuing nightmarish dream. I will never forget her. (circled)
November 14.
Big sale at Millers. 50% off. Worked cleaning all day. Bathroom, moved furniture in Dining R., dusted etc. Wrote in my diary. Called Dora, still nursing her knee (ligaments pulled). Daddy - little intractable. Bobby read book length news article about election. I started it. Called Rosy about Fri. Highway 2 frig. Ask about General Ele. price. Comparing with Highway Appliance.
I must try to curb my anxiety.
November 15.
Rather's newscast - hunger in N. Africa is still intense. Afternoon magazine - reporting on a Satanic cult, try to turn children into evil beings. Johnnys. Met Pauline - Paula family Thanksgiving. Tom called. Coming. Susie has new job offers. Called H. Appliance - G. E. frig 689 deluxe or 669. Joe can get deluxe model for 549 (underlined 3 times). Seems unbelievable. Will this store take my old one away?
November 16.
Colder. Dug several more dahlia roots. Cleaned, washed curtains. Put up Daddy's room. Is the full moon causing his obstinacy? Called Jean. James, Grace called. Bernard wants them to come to his home for Thanksgiving. Talked to Mary - still crying - not as much.
November 17.
Cold morning. Carol took me to Kays - nails (repaired). I must use gloves when working with clorox. Millers - gray slacks still there (no reduction). Home on 11 bus. Sunshiny day but windy, cold. Stopped at Jeans. Home spotless, shiny. James will start radium treatments on Mon., cont Tues, Wed. No Thurs and Fri. Called Dora - hair done - wants to go to Mass at 6:00 (knee - not better). Joe home from Mexico.
November 18. Snow (mush). Mass - woman's place, so nonrelevant, I (secretly) laughed, amused. Priests know so little about family problems. (I get renewal from excluding their remarks and meditating on the Christian message). Called Katy - will come on Thurs. Dora still trouble with knee but looked fine. Grace P. hospitalized (probable stroke). So many elderly people in Roscoe. Ilsa may get a scholarship.
Waited for Carol up at 6:30- signals mixed. Going by bus when Helen P., seated with me at bus stop son picked us up - Charleroi. (Looked at gray slacks - will be cheaper). Home at 11:15. Rained (misty). Stopped in Jeans. Pat called James and Grace at 11. Told him not to come to Eileen's, leaving on Sunday. Johnnys. Daddy much more amenable today.
November 11.
Mass at 11. Met Dona T. still as I do, ache for our two children (mass for Dave T.). Janet with her 2 boys was there. Called - talked to Ilsa. Dora visited. Lil there. Rosy called. Must call Dr. tomorrow.
November 12.
Armistice Day. Some schools closed. Rose, Joe, Mark came about 10. Joe fired in stove, burners on stove - cleaned it. Rose went to Foodland ($76), about $10 reduction with coupons. Is there a shortage of jobs here? Toy City booming. Called Amy on her birthday, talked to Suzy and Erin. Called Katy - talked to Heidi - Katy helping Matt with home work. (Get toy tomorrow for him.) Called Rosy--in den ironing. P., Mark watching television. Joey's first basketball game.
November 13.
Brighter, warmer. Bought Transformer at Toy City (15). Brought in more dahlia bulbs - some were getting soft (might be slugs), sprayed some. Others had earthworms attached, much healthier. Sent letters to Katy and Michael. Called Dora- spent day taking care of her knee. Felt fine otherwise. 50th anniversary celebration of Donald Duck. How remarkable the artists are who make these animated pictures! Lutheran Min. from Carrick sentenced to 90 days in jail - broke law.
Night Dream.
Ann, dressed in a brownish tweed suit, taking me in her car (another passenger) came to a section of road with red blinking lights - she reduced speed - stopped.
Next I was placed in a maze with no exit. (Sartre's No Exit). I ran from one section to another, no Ann.
Later outside with Ann, continuing nightmarish dream. I will never forget her. (circled)
November 14.
Big sale at Millers. 50% off. Worked cleaning all day. Bathroom, moved furniture in Dining R., dusted etc. Wrote in my diary. Called Dora, still nursing her knee (ligaments pulled). Daddy - little intractable. Bobby read book length news article about election. I started it. Called Rosy about Fri. Highway 2 frig. Ask about General Ele. price. Comparing with Highway Appliance.
I must try to curb my anxiety.
November 15.
Rather's newscast - hunger in N. Africa is still intense. Afternoon magazine - reporting on a Satanic cult, try to turn children into evil beings. Johnnys. Met Pauline - Paula family Thanksgiving. Tom called. Coming. Susie has new job offers. Called H. Appliance - G. E. frig 689 deluxe or 669. Joe can get deluxe model for 549 (underlined 3 times). Seems unbelievable. Will this store take my old one away?
November 16.
Colder. Dug several more dahlia roots. Cleaned, washed curtains. Put up Daddy's room. Is the full moon causing his obstinacy? Called Jean. James, Grace called. Bernard wants them to come to his home for Thanksgiving. Talked to Mary - still crying - not as much.
November 17.
Cold morning. Carol took me to Kays - nails (repaired). I must use gloves when working with clorox. Millers - gray slacks still there (no reduction). Home on 11 bus. Sunshiny day but windy, cold. Stopped at Jeans. Home spotless, shiny. James will start radium treatments on Mon., cont Tues, Wed. No Thurs and Fri. Called Dora - hair done - wants to go to Mass at 6:00 (knee - not better). Joe home from Mexico.
November 18. Snow (mush). Mass - woman's place, so nonrelevant, I (secretly) laughed, amused. Priests know so little about family problems. (I get renewal from excluding their remarks and meditating on the Christian message). Called Katy - will come on Thurs. Dora still trouble with knee but looked fine. Grace P. hospitalized (probable stroke). So many elderly people in Roscoe. Ilsa may get a scholarship.
Thursday, November 20, 2014
The Spirit not the Letter
November 1, 1984.
Up before seven, heard Daddy.
Ready for Mass at 9:30 - walked - what a comforting philosophy. St. in heaven. Tomorrow All Souls Day. Must remember my beloved dead. K Her(rest is illegible)...me home. Saw Pauline, Mary Jo. Brief chat with Mary - insights into people's lives Mary gave me. I must not be too hasty to judge others. Johnnys-- met Dora (eyes were bad to-day but it was a bright day) she looked perfectly dressed as usual. Met Joyce G. in Johnnys--soon will graduate from C.U. two children gone, both on their own. Jean called. James is one in a million--no one would know that he is suffering. Reads, talks, interested in life, drives Grace to hairdresser. Mary coming with 2 daughters over weekend. Jean feels that it would shorten both lives if they left Clarksville.
November 2.
Windy and colder. Verona U. took most of flowers to decorate at Family Day observance in Corning. Gave me seeds. Bank, Johnnys. Reagan way up in polls. "Young must equate wisdom with age". Many back 73 year old actor Reagan as our leader in such troublesome times. One man cannot govern today. Took in all plants - frost forecast (mid 20's). Bobby cut grass again. I raked leaves around walnut tree. Sunny, blue skies but windy.
November 3.
First frost. Everything dead - one wonders how life would ever come again to these areas. Hair done - shopped briefly. Home 11:30. Johnnys. Visited Jean who brought me home - gave her 2 books to read. Burgan (sp?) came to service refrig. He suggested shopping for a new one - altho he would service it (about $180 - if I can get one as small as mine, do so - if not, he'll work on it).
November 4.
Superficial sermon. Although T. B. follows the ritual closely and is there when needed, he often fails to see below the surface. It's the spirit not the letter. Religion is communing with God within you. I know I've a long way to go. I was remiss and feel sad - forgot to call Heidi on her birthday. Katy was in Alex, Va. Mike, Tom, she ate dinner. She met Ronnie Reeves - walking in Washington. Judy in Boston. Dora still hobbling. Rosy called - had young Priest for dinner - he took Joey to Steelers game. No news from Clarksville. Rainy, rainy day. What are Doughertys doing? Must send Amy's card - call her next Sunday. Birthday is on 12 Monday. Called Tom 3X - no answer. Where are they?
November 5.
Spent time taking up some dahlia tubers, potted a begonia for Dora. Johnnys. Tom called. Judy home. Conference at school about Tommy. Thekla's letter - Pat at Sheila's babysitting. Colder at night.
November 6.
Rainy, cold. 40, with wind 20. Voted for Dem. nominees. As I predicted Reagan, the incompetent, is winning. Clean sweep of every state. (D. of Col. for Mondale). Sent Lynn's and Michael's letters.
November 7.
Reagan most inept President ever but popular, has won more electoral votes than any other Pres including Franklin D. Roosevelt. Mondale showed his colors, accepted his defeat gracefully, (TV not good to him and he is not good on it) will not seek public office again. Ferraro on TV with husband. Sent Amy's card - letter to Thekla, picked up more dahlia bulbs. Met Dora. Daddy restless. Jean called. James and Grace getting along well. Rosy called. May come on Mon. to clean stove and put in screens.
November 8.
Cold morning, sunny, warmer afternoon - clothes dried outside. Cleaned one bedroom, dug up about 50 dahlia bulbs - talked to Dora. Mary's Dr. - Lill P drove her--asked Lill to come in office when he told her. Hospitalized (Pitt.) She'll do so when Joe returns from his Mexico vacation. Dan Rather news - again pictures of starvation in North Ethiopia-so pitiful, many under 5 yrs. Many take hazardous trip by foot to Catholic Shelter - some are saved. (So much wasted food here, nothing there).
November 9.
Rained all day. Was Daddy not feeling well? Ate everything I gave him but Tom Webb felt something was wrong after he shaved him (Tom, Betty leaving by car with John and Delores for Fla on Tues. I'll miss them). Cleaned bathrooms upstairs. (Letter and how I love to get them from Michael). Erin scouting for her school next yr. Must call on Amy's birthday. Johnnys. Sent to Country Curtains.
Up before seven, heard Daddy.
Ready for Mass at 9:30 - walked - what a comforting philosophy. St. in heaven. Tomorrow All Souls Day. Must remember my beloved dead. K Her(rest is illegible)...me home. Saw Pauline, Mary Jo. Brief chat with Mary - insights into people's lives Mary gave me. I must not be too hasty to judge others. Johnnys-- met Dora (eyes were bad to-day but it was a bright day) she looked perfectly dressed as usual. Met Joyce G. in Johnnys--soon will graduate from C.U. two children gone, both on their own. Jean called. James is one in a million--no one would know that he is suffering. Reads, talks, interested in life, drives Grace to hairdresser. Mary coming with 2 daughters over weekend. Jean feels that it would shorten both lives if they left Clarksville.
November 2.
Windy and colder. Verona U. took most of flowers to decorate at Family Day observance in Corning. Gave me seeds. Bank, Johnnys. Reagan way up in polls. "Young must equate wisdom with age". Many back 73 year old actor Reagan as our leader in such troublesome times. One man cannot govern today. Took in all plants - frost forecast (mid 20's). Bobby cut grass again. I raked leaves around walnut tree. Sunny, blue skies but windy.
November 3.
First frost. Everything dead - one wonders how life would ever come again to these areas. Hair done - shopped briefly. Home 11:30. Johnnys. Visited Jean who brought me home - gave her 2 books to read. Burgan (sp?) came to service refrig. He suggested shopping for a new one - altho he would service it (about $180 - if I can get one as small as mine, do so - if not, he'll work on it).
November 4.
Superficial sermon. Although T. B. follows the ritual closely and is there when needed, he often fails to see below the surface. It's the spirit not the letter. Religion is communing with God within you. I know I've a long way to go. I was remiss and feel sad - forgot to call Heidi on her birthday. Katy was in Alex, Va. Mike, Tom, she ate dinner. She met Ronnie Reeves - walking in Washington. Judy in Boston. Dora still hobbling. Rosy called - had young Priest for dinner - he took Joey to Steelers game. No news from Clarksville. Rainy, rainy day. What are Doughertys doing? Must send Amy's card - call her next Sunday. Birthday is on 12 Monday. Called Tom 3X - no answer. Where are they?
November 5.
Spent time taking up some dahlia tubers, potted a begonia for Dora. Johnnys. Tom called. Judy home. Conference at school about Tommy. Thekla's letter - Pat at Sheila's babysitting. Colder at night.
November 6.
Rainy, cold. 40, with wind 20. Voted for Dem. nominees. As I predicted Reagan, the incompetent, is winning. Clean sweep of every state. (D. of Col. for Mondale). Sent Lynn's and Michael's letters.
November 7.
Reagan most inept President ever but popular, has won more electoral votes than any other Pres including Franklin D. Roosevelt. Mondale showed his colors, accepted his defeat gracefully, (TV not good to him and he is not good on it) will not seek public office again. Ferraro on TV with husband. Sent Amy's card - letter to Thekla, picked up more dahlia bulbs. Met Dora. Daddy restless. Jean called. James and Grace getting along well. Rosy called. May come on Mon. to clean stove and put in screens.
November 8.
Cold morning, sunny, warmer afternoon - clothes dried outside. Cleaned one bedroom, dug up about 50 dahlia bulbs - talked to Dora. Mary's Dr. - Lill P drove her--asked Lill to come in office when he told her. Hospitalized (Pitt.) She'll do so when Joe returns from his Mexico vacation. Dan Rather news - again pictures of starvation in North Ethiopia-so pitiful, many under 5 yrs. Many take hazardous trip by foot to Catholic Shelter - some are saved. (So much wasted food here, nothing there).
November 9.
Rained all day. Was Daddy not feeling well? Ate everything I gave him but Tom Webb felt something was wrong after he shaved him (Tom, Betty leaving by car with John and Delores for Fla on Tues. I'll miss them). Cleaned bathrooms upstairs. (Letter and how I love to get them from Michael). Erin scouting for her school next yr. Must call on Amy's birthday. Johnnys. Sent to Country Curtains.
Saturday, July 5, 2014
Beginning Etymology
26 July (no year)
Torrance
Dearest Mary and Irish,
Thek's brother is planning to drive East to visit in Charleroi and Washington DC. I'm planning, the good lord willing, to accompany him.
Our tentative plans are to arrive in Charleroi on August 14th, your birthday. If all goes acc. to schedule I'll be seeing you. I would like to attend Mass at St. Joseph's on Sunday and I can then plan the few days or so I'll be able to spend in Penna.
If Jimmie and Grace are OK and they still drive to Baltimore I would like to drive down with them to visit with Mary (particularly) and the rest of his gang. If he isn't up to it I can make other plans.
Next summer (God willing) Thek and I and possibly Patty and her husband Rod or some of the others available plan to visit Penna.
Give my regards to all of yours.
Your brother, Pat
I must be Scotch. I do have better and larger paper.
20 Apr 83
Torrance
Dearest Mary and Irish,
Easter has passed and the rains, that Millay said "is kind to come and speak to me" has spoken too often during the past few weeks and "the broad face of the sun" is laughing above the rain soaked earth" much to our delight.
I don't know whether I told you in one of my letters but I'm teaching a class in "Beginning Etymology" - Seventh graders at St. Margaret Mary School in Lomita. This is the school Aime and Dylan attend and soon Rory and then Cristin (Mark and Zoe's brood) will attend. (From the looks of the above I should be taking a class in "composition"!! Well I have an excuse -- I'm getting old and I have a tendency (?) to let my thoughts get ahead of my pen. )
Sheila and Jerry and their Michael (10), Jaime (7) and Dennis (4) are currently in Palm Springs visiting Jerry's mom and dad and will arrive here in Torrance Thursday for a week's visit. I probably will go back to Sun Valley with them and spend a month (or longer) with them.
Our family are all fine -- Kevin/Renee's new son is doing fine as are all the others. Give my regards and love to all of yours and I hope and pray that your burden will be lightened.
Your rother
Pat
15 March 84
Torrance
Dearest Mary and Irish,
No we haven't "gone to that mysterious realm where each must take his place etc"--I'm just too lazy to write.
Maureen's Jennifer presented us with our first great grandson a 9# 4 oz. healthy baby whom they intend to christen Cody Patrick (it seems Matt's family has some connection with Wild Bill!) at least the middle name fits -- and mother and baby are fine.
The rest of our gang is fine. All apparently doing well. Kevin teaching, Maureen analyzing, Patty retiring, Sheila skiing, Lou waitressing (enjoying her "tips") an Mark directing. Incidentally Mark is now "Director of International Production - Republic of Korea for Northrup. In fact he will be spending several weeks or months in Korea just after Easter.
All the grandchildren are doing fine and growing like "bad weeds" Thek and I have two cut rate tickets we must use before June 6th so we are planning to fly into DC. Sometime around May 1 - 5th. Since we must return by June 6th we won't have as much time as we would like but at cut rate ($40 each a round trip) who can complain ??
We will contact you from DC and give you our info as to when we will be seeing you and yours.
Your brother
Pat.
3 Dec 84
Torrance
Dearest Mary and Irish,
We certainly enjoyed your letters (not the news they brought but the letters themselves). I think everyone in the family read and re-read them. I'm almost embarrassed when I write to you, as my scribbling pales in comparison. I just finished writing a letter to Jimmie and told him about my plans for a visit this Spring. You know, when I called him from Sheila's (when Thek called me to tell me of the seriousness of his illness) I told him I had tickets that I could use to fly back for a visit and wanted to know if I should fly immediately from Idaho. He said, "wait til spring -- as far as I know I might die tomorrow or live for twenty more years!" So I'm thinking about a trip back in March 85.
Everyone out here is fine - I had a little trouble when I was up in Idaho - had a cold that I had trouble shaking, but I'm feeling fine now that I'm down out of snow country!
The whole family, with exception of Sheila in Idaho and Kevin who is still teaching at West High and incidentally Girls Basketball Coach (Girls sports are "real big" in S. Cal) is working at Northrup. Patty's husband, who had retired not because of age but because several years ago mgt positions were scarce, went back to work as a consultant on their newest plane called the "Stealth". Mark is a supervisor on their F-20 and (thank God!) won't have to go to Korea (the recent trouble between North and South Korea had me worried). Patty went back to work as a secretary and Gisella Lou is working at Northrop. Now if I can just get Rod to place Thek in some job --I'll be in heaven!! ha!ha!
I pray that Irish hasn't gotten any more troublesome for you and that all of yours are well. Give all of them my best (not just for the Holidays).
May God Bless you Mary, you deserve and have earned your place "with all the angels and saints".
Your brother
Pat
Torrance
Dearest Mary and Irish,
Thek's brother is planning to drive East to visit in Charleroi and Washington DC. I'm planning, the good lord willing, to accompany him.
Our tentative plans are to arrive in Charleroi on August 14th, your birthday. If all goes acc. to schedule I'll be seeing you. I would like to attend Mass at St. Joseph's on Sunday and I can then plan the few days or so I'll be able to spend in Penna.
If Jimmie and Grace are OK and they still drive to Baltimore I would like to drive down with them to visit with Mary (particularly) and the rest of his gang. If he isn't up to it I can make other plans.
Next summer (God willing) Thek and I and possibly Patty and her husband Rod or some of the others available plan to visit Penna.
Give my regards to all of yours.
Your brother, Pat
I must be Scotch. I do have better and larger paper.
20 Apr 83
Torrance
Dearest Mary and Irish,
Easter has passed and the rains, that Millay said "is kind to come and speak to me" has spoken too often during the past few weeks and "the broad face of the sun" is laughing above the rain soaked earth" much to our delight.
I don't know whether I told you in one of my letters but I'm teaching a class in "Beginning Etymology" - Seventh graders at St. Margaret Mary School in Lomita. This is the school Aime and Dylan attend and soon Rory and then Cristin (Mark and Zoe's brood) will attend. (From the looks of the above I should be taking a class in "composition"!! Well I have an excuse -- I'm getting old and I have a tendency (?) to let my thoughts get ahead of my pen. )
Sheila and Jerry and their Michael (10), Jaime (7) and Dennis (4) are currently in Palm Springs visiting Jerry's mom and dad and will arrive here in Torrance Thursday for a week's visit. I probably will go back to Sun Valley with them and spend a month (or longer) with them.
Our family are all fine -- Kevin/Renee's new son is doing fine as are all the others. Give my regards and love to all of yours and I hope and pray that your burden will be lightened.
Your rother
Pat
15 March 84
Torrance
Dearest Mary and Irish,
No we haven't "gone to that mysterious realm where each must take his place etc"--I'm just too lazy to write.
Maureen's Jennifer presented us with our first great grandson a 9# 4 oz. healthy baby whom they intend to christen Cody Patrick (it seems Matt's family has some connection with Wild Bill!) at least the middle name fits -- and mother and baby are fine.
The rest of our gang is fine. All apparently doing well. Kevin teaching, Maureen analyzing, Patty retiring, Sheila skiing, Lou waitressing (enjoying her "tips") an Mark directing. Incidentally Mark is now "Director of International Production - Republic of Korea for Northrup. In fact he will be spending several weeks or months in Korea just after Easter.
All the grandchildren are doing fine and growing like "bad weeds" Thek and I have two cut rate tickets we must use before June 6th so we are planning to fly into DC. Sometime around May 1 - 5th. Since we must return by June 6th we won't have as much time as we would like but at cut rate ($40 each a round trip) who can complain ??
We will contact you from DC and give you our info as to when we will be seeing you and yours.
Your brother
Pat.
3 Dec 84
Torrance
Dearest Mary and Irish,
We certainly enjoyed your letters (not the news they brought but the letters themselves). I think everyone in the family read and re-read them. I'm almost embarrassed when I write to you, as my scribbling pales in comparison. I just finished writing a letter to Jimmie and told him about my plans for a visit this Spring. You know, when I called him from Sheila's (when Thek called me to tell me of the seriousness of his illness) I told him I had tickets that I could use to fly back for a visit and wanted to know if I should fly immediately from Idaho. He said, "wait til spring -- as far as I know I might die tomorrow or live for twenty more years!" So I'm thinking about a trip back in March 85.
Everyone out here is fine - I had a little trouble when I was up in Idaho - had a cold that I had trouble shaking, but I'm feeling fine now that I'm down out of snow country!
The whole family, with exception of Sheila in Idaho and Kevin who is still teaching at West High and incidentally Girls Basketball Coach (Girls sports are "real big" in S. Cal) is working at Northrup. Patty's husband, who had retired not because of age but because several years ago mgt positions were scarce, went back to work as a consultant on their newest plane called the "Stealth". Mark is a supervisor on their F-20 and (thank God!) won't have to go to Korea (the recent trouble between North and South Korea had me worried). Patty went back to work as a secretary and Gisella Lou is working at Northrop. Now if I can just get Rod to place Thek in some job --I'll be in heaven!! ha!ha!
I pray that Irish hasn't gotten any more troublesome for you and that all of yours are well. Give all of them my best (not just for the Holidays).
May God Bless you Mary, you deserve and have earned your place "with all the angels and saints".
Your brother
Pat
Thursday, July 3, 2014
A room at El Rancho
20 Aug 85
Torrance
Dearest Mary,
Belated birthday greetings! All of my children will be here today (except Sheila - Sun Valley) to help me celebrate my 76th (my how time flies) and when we all get together it is really a crowd (a delightful one - because as James's Bernard always says the McManus's are the greatest!!)
I'm growing old (not too) but lazy (very) but enjoying it immensely. Lou planted a small garden in our backyard (about four feet by 12') and we have had all the tomatoes and zucchini squash the whole family needed and the peppers will soon be showing up! All I did was supply the water every evening! My lemon tree has supplied all the lemons we needed - now if I only had chickens, a cow and a pig I would have it made!!!
I took a few days off and went to Las Vegas - (by myself as Thek doesn't like sitting on a bus) had a lot of fun, didn't win anything but the whole trip including Bus fare, food, and a room at the El Rancho, cost me less than ten dollars. So I was a really big winner!
I think I wrote to Tommy (I'm also becoming a little --haha-- forgetful) and thanked him for the time, money and effort he spent hauling us around the East during our visit. When you see him or write Thank him for me!!
Give my regards to all of yours and I will continue to keep all of you in my prayers!
I miss you very much and am very sorry that I am no closer so I could help you with Irish.
May the Good Lord keep and Bless you!
Your brother,
Pat
Torrance
Dearest Mary,
Belated birthday greetings! All of my children will be here today (except Sheila - Sun Valley) to help me celebrate my 76th (my how time flies) and when we all get together it is really a crowd (a delightful one - because as James's Bernard always says the McManus's are the greatest!!)
I'm growing old (not too) but lazy (very) but enjoying it immensely. Lou planted a small garden in our backyard (about four feet by 12') and we have had all the tomatoes and zucchini squash the whole family needed and the peppers will soon be showing up! All I did was supply the water every evening! My lemon tree has supplied all the lemons we needed - now if I only had chickens, a cow and a pig I would have it made!!!
I took a few days off and went to Las Vegas - (by myself as Thek doesn't like sitting on a bus) had a lot of fun, didn't win anything but the whole trip including Bus fare, food, and a room at the El Rancho, cost me less than ten dollars. So I was a really big winner!
I think I wrote to Tommy (I'm also becoming a little --haha-- forgetful) and thanked him for the time, money and effort he spent hauling us around the East during our visit. When you see him or write Thank him for me!!
Give my regards to all of yours and I will continue to keep all of you in my prayers!
I miss you very much and am very sorry that I am no closer so I could help you with Irish.
May the Good Lord keep and Bless you!
Your brother,
Pat
Love from Patsy
Torrance
6 Jan 83
Dearest Mary and Irish,
We were so pleased to receive your beautiful Christmas card and message. I know, in a small way, how difficult the Christmas season must have been and I'm deeply saddened by the distance that separates us. I am also beginning to realize just how much my sister meant (and means) to me, and I know that a just God will give you the strength to bear the burdens you have been asked to bear during the past few years. We pray that you will find the strength, and I know you will, to cope with any burden a just Lord will place upon your shoulders (and heart)! I'm sure that Mike is a good father and that Ann's children will not be neglected.
Our Patty spent yesterday with us and read and reread your letter and she reminded us of happier events during Ann's youth in Roscoe. Naturally your letter as are all the letters we receive from Pennsylvania will be read and reread by all of our children. The Good Lord has blessed us. I sometimes wonder why as I know I don't deserve it. When I remember all the sadness I brought to Mother when I was "growing up". Thek's mother will appreciate the Mass you are offering up. Thanks!
Maureen is doing fine and has a wonderful position (Northrup's only "woman manager"). Stephanie is still in school and Jennifer is happily married -- no great grandchildren as yet. Kevin and Renee are so excited. They are expecting a baby in March. Lou and her family are fine and luckily Mark got out of the construction business just in time. Mark, Zoe and children spent the week between Xmas and New Year's with Sheila, Jerry and Mike.
After reading your letter, I tried to think of a quotation that bobs up in my mind from Millay's Renascence. All my prayers and love for you and yours, Pat
6 Jan 83
Dearest Mary and Irish,
We were so pleased to receive your beautiful Christmas card and message. I know, in a small way, how difficult the Christmas season must have been and I'm deeply saddened by the distance that separates us. I am also beginning to realize just how much my sister meant (and means) to me, and I know that a just God will give you the strength to bear the burdens you have been asked to bear during the past few years. We pray that you will find the strength, and I know you will, to cope with any burden a just Lord will place upon your shoulders (and heart)! I'm sure that Mike is a good father and that Ann's children will not be neglected.
Our Patty spent yesterday with us and read and reread your letter and she reminded us of happier events during Ann's youth in Roscoe. Naturally your letter as are all the letters we receive from Pennsylvania will be read and reread by all of our children. The Good Lord has blessed us. I sometimes wonder why as I know I don't deserve it. When I remember all the sadness I brought to Mother when I was "growing up". Thek's mother will appreciate the Mass you are offering up. Thanks!
Maureen is doing fine and has a wonderful position (Northrup's only "woman manager"). Stephanie is still in school and Jennifer is happily married -- no great grandchildren as yet. Kevin and Renee are so excited. They are expecting a baby in March. Lou and her family are fine and luckily Mark got out of the construction business just in time. Mark, Zoe and children spent the week between Xmas and New Year's with Sheila, Jerry and Mike.
After reading your letter, I tried to think of a quotation that bobs up in my mind from Millay's Renascence. All my prayers and love for you and yours, Pat
Friday, June 27, 2014
Resolve
Circa 1980s
The busy person is the one who always got many things accomplished. At this time in my life when the days are long instead of becoming serene, unemotional about problems I can never solve the opposite occurs. Often after I have been talking to friends I feel depressed. Why did I get so worked up about issues in life when people I'm talking to are living in the Dark Ages. Instead of developing I am regressing. At this point in my life, I must be charitable, forgiving and understanding. Every morning I resolve to keep serene, happy and loving. If I do not follow these rules, I will become an ordinary person.
The busy person is the one who always got many things accomplished. At this time in my life when the days are long instead of becoming serene, unemotional about problems I can never solve the opposite occurs. Often after I have been talking to friends I feel depressed. Why did I get so worked up about issues in life when people I'm talking to are living in the Dark Ages. Instead of developing I am regressing. At this point in my life, I must be charitable, forgiving and understanding. Every morning I resolve to keep serene, happy and loving. If I do not follow these rules, I will become an ordinary person.
Monday, June 16, 2014
Still trying at 87
Flannery O'Connor - "The Grotesque in Modern Fiction"
"In the grotesque works we find the writer has made alive some experience which we are not accustomed to observe every day, or which the ordinary man may never experience in his ordinary life." True for me. I read some several times, so unusual to me.
June 20, 1992
Cold - 60. Walked around the block. Dusted upstairs. Mary M called - still pain in ankles. Rose called. All gone to Kennywood. Called Joey to give him my order. Going to work at Club tomorrow. Tom called last night. All is well there. Young Tommy working in construction in his Dad's Erin Construction. Ilsa often at Tom's - babysitting; excited by her internship. Streets deserted today.
"Little by little with patience and endurance we must find the way for ourselves, find out how to live with ourselves and with each other." Zen. I'm still trying at 87.
"In the grotesque works we find the writer has made alive some experience which we are not accustomed to observe every day, or which the ordinary man may never experience in his ordinary life." True for me. I read some several times, so unusual to me.
June 20, 1992
Cold - 60. Walked around the block. Dusted upstairs. Mary M called - still pain in ankles. Rose called. All gone to Kennywood. Called Joey to give him my order. Going to work at Club tomorrow. Tom called last night. All is well there. Young Tommy working in construction in his Dad's Erin Construction. Ilsa often at Tom's - babysitting; excited by her internship. Streets deserted today.
"Little by little with patience and endurance we must find the way for ourselves, find out how to live with ourselves and with each other." Zen. I'm still trying at 87.
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Beautiful Day
Friday, June 12, 1992
Beautiful blue skies. I was afraid to walk to Annette's without Betty. No hair washed. Walked, [illegible], other things but was tired in afternoon. Mary still having trouble with back.
Saturday, June 13
Beautiful day - made bean dish. Betty over - good time at Atlantic City.
Sunday, June 14
Joey and Patrick came up. Both looked fine. Pat as tall as Joey. Joey bought me a small hand-sculpted figure - full of details. Gift from France. Called Katy had a fine time in N. Carolina at Suzy's H.S. graduation. Ilsa job in law office in Washington DC.
Monday, June 15
Pauline H. brought Meals on Wheels. Mary McManus much better. Betty over and I was glad. Walked - chores.
Tuesday, June 16
Grass cut - weeds pulled back. Two small trees taken out. Walked. Sadie over briefly - Anna Belle home. Weinberger indicted. Must listen to news - newspaper still on strike.
Wednesday, June 17
Hot, humid day, storms forecast. May reach 90. A breeze on front porch. A wasted day, must return to my life story. Kirkegard - our personal task in life, becoming a Christian, not necessarily Church going. Boris Yeltsin in U.S., addressed the Congress. Popular.
[following seems to be a page-long interlude in her diary of quotes]
Can we die to what we have always been and emerge a new person? Everything she said had a special meaning but said kindly and honestly. Your world makes it difficult to be unique. Spirit Woman.
We are capable of so much simply as human beings; we have extraordinary powers yet to be explored.
The rising sun's artistry etched in the sky produces a feeling of wonder and awe - lines of varying shades of pink making swathes against gray sky.
Nature produces awe inspiring landscapes which the greatest artists only approached.
The days passed, one slowly gliding into the other.
Melancholy capriciousness of all existence.
Sheen of sun on water.
Our spiritual life passes through definite developmental stages. Not many reach the seventh step, fully internalizing Christ's message. Many adults capable of living a more satisfying spiritual life are content to remain at immature levels of development.
Prayer is man's intercourse with the subconscious.
June 18, Friday
Beautiful day. Spent morning cleaning downstairs. Pauline brought Meals on Wheels. Spent time editing my life story. Dora called - still keeping involved. May live to be 100. Betty over at 7 till 9. I'm thankful for her [giving] so much time for me.
Beautiful blue skies. I was afraid to walk to Annette's without Betty. No hair washed. Walked, [illegible], other things but was tired in afternoon. Mary still having trouble with back.
Saturday, June 13
Beautiful day - made bean dish. Betty over - good time at Atlantic City.
Sunday, June 14
Joey and Patrick came up. Both looked fine. Pat as tall as Joey. Joey bought me a small hand-sculpted figure - full of details. Gift from France. Called Katy had a fine time in N. Carolina at Suzy's H.S. graduation. Ilsa job in law office in Washington DC.
Monday, June 15
Pauline H. brought Meals on Wheels. Mary McManus much better. Betty over and I was glad. Walked - chores.
Tuesday, June 16
Grass cut - weeds pulled back. Two small trees taken out. Walked. Sadie over briefly - Anna Belle home. Weinberger indicted. Must listen to news - newspaper still on strike.
Wednesday, June 17
Hot, humid day, storms forecast. May reach 90. A breeze on front porch. A wasted day, must return to my life story. Kirkegard - our personal task in life, becoming a Christian, not necessarily Church going. Boris Yeltsin in U.S., addressed the Congress. Popular.
[following seems to be a page-long interlude in her diary of quotes]
Can we die to what we have always been and emerge a new person? Everything she said had a special meaning but said kindly and honestly. Your world makes it difficult to be unique. Spirit Woman.
We are capable of so much simply as human beings; we have extraordinary powers yet to be explored.
The rising sun's artistry etched in the sky produces a feeling of wonder and awe - lines of varying shades of pink making swathes against gray sky.
Nature produces awe inspiring landscapes which the greatest artists only approached.
The days passed, one slowly gliding into the other.
Melancholy capriciousness of all existence.
Sheen of sun on water.
Our spiritual life passes through definite developmental stages. Not many reach the seventh step, fully internalizing Christ's message. Many adults capable of living a more satisfying spiritual life are content to remain at immature levels of development.
Prayer is man's intercourse with the subconscious.
June 18, Friday
Beautiful day. Spent morning cleaning downstairs. Pauline brought Meals on Wheels. Spent time editing my life story. Dora called - still keeping involved. May live to be 100. Betty over at 7 till 9. I'm thankful for her [giving] so much time for me.
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Renascence
April 18, 1981
Good Friday was once an important day in our family, a day of fast. Today everything goes on as usual - but with one difference. Katy came at three o'clock, alone. She looked beautiful and happy. Her coming shut out the rain falling on this day. In Roscoe it is traditional to have Ecumenical Services with all Churches (Christian) participating. How long has it been since I attended one! I must not be moody. I have much to be thankful for. Have we forgotten what a discipline fasting can be?
April 19, 1981
Nature cooperated today on Holy Saturday by removing the heaviness from Good Friday and making us realize that this death was not in vain. Many years ago on Holy Saturday I was traveling from Pittsburgh by street car, I noticed a theme placed on a bulletin in front of a Church which had a profound effect upon me. "The Soul can split the sky in two and let the face of God shine through." Later in life, I knew these words came from Edna St. V. Millay's poem Renascence, rebirth - joyous message of Easter. Today Katy happily dug up perennials, washed her car, and shopped. Although I missed services, I was able to get in touch with myself, and find an inner peace.
April 20, 1981
It was a cloudy Easter when Joe, Rosy, and children came about 12:30. Katy left at 2:30 (I hated to see her go.) but Tom, Judy and Tommy came shortly after she left. Easter message rings loud and clear to me, making me inwardly peaceful - Going out to others and affirming them is most effective discipline in our journey toward perfection.
Good Friday was once an important day in our family, a day of fast. Today everything goes on as usual - but with one difference. Katy came at three o'clock, alone. She looked beautiful and happy. Her coming shut out the rain falling on this day. In Roscoe it is traditional to have Ecumenical Services with all Churches (Christian) participating. How long has it been since I attended one! I must not be moody. I have much to be thankful for. Have we forgotten what a discipline fasting can be?
April 19, 1981
Nature cooperated today on Holy Saturday by removing the heaviness from Good Friday and making us realize that this death was not in vain. Many years ago on Holy Saturday I was traveling from Pittsburgh by street car, I noticed a theme placed on a bulletin in front of a Church which had a profound effect upon me. "The Soul can split the sky in two and let the face of God shine through." Later in life, I knew these words came from Edna St. V. Millay's poem Renascence, rebirth - joyous message of Easter. Today Katy happily dug up perennials, washed her car, and shopped. Although I missed services, I was able to get in touch with myself, and find an inner peace.
April 20, 1981
It was a cloudy Easter when Joe, Rosy, and children came about 12:30. Katy left at 2:30 (I hated to see her go.) but Tom, Judy and Tommy came shortly after she left. Easter message rings loud and clear to me, making me inwardly peaceful - Going out to others and affirming them is most effective discipline in our journey toward perfection.
Monday, March 17, 2014
Tuffy McManus
[Grandma's brother, Pat, sent her many letters over the years which I will excerpt here. He also contributed to the family history that Grandma wrote. Here he shares his remembrances of their brother, Bernard, who died in his late 30s of complications from diabetes].
Bernard "Tuffy" McManus
"Protective, kind, considerate, compassionate, a "sucker" for someone with a "sob story" - (I will always think that his nickname was a misnomer - he was strong, straightforward, I suppose you could say Tough in a sort of a lovable way.)
I should be ashamed of myself! I certainly took advantage of my big brother (while growing up). I remember how I used to stick him with most of my chores around the house and in the vegetable garden. He would always cover up for me. I remember how he used to protect me from all the young "Bullies" in Roscoe. None of them dared touch me because of Tuffy - and I made sure they never forgot it!!!
When they had the Football banquet in my Sr. year of High School (I had gone out for the football team (all 115lbs of me) and stuck out the whole year altho I only got to play about 2 - 3 minutes when the game was decided (over). "Sonny" Mills the coach told me he was sorry I didn't get to play more but "Tuffy" made him promise he wouldn't put me in the game until he told him it was safe for me to go in - and since Tuffy played til the game was decided I sat on the bench.
Tuffy was picked on the first All-Mon Valley Team as a guard.
He was also picked by coaches as All WPIAL guard.
He was picked on Dartmouth College all opponent team as a Freshman at Allegheny College.
He was picked on the New York Daily Mirrors all Eastern Team as a Freshman (The sportswriter saw him play against Dartmouth and picked him on the basis of that performance).
His Charlie Chaplin imitation was a true delight for all the kids in Roscoe.
Patty and Maureen have fond memories of him and his red headed girl friend but their most vivid memory of Roscoe is of grand pap taking "grand ma's" change out of the table drawer in the kitchen and taking them over to Farquahr's store and buying them candy.
Everything in California is fine - and hardly a day passes that I don't hear some comment about your visit and about "Heidi" - she really made an impression.
Pat(sy)
Bernard "Tuffy" McManus
"Protective, kind, considerate, compassionate, a "sucker" for someone with a "sob story" - (I will always think that his nickname was a misnomer - he was strong, straightforward, I suppose you could say Tough in a sort of a lovable way.)
I should be ashamed of myself! I certainly took advantage of my big brother (while growing up). I remember how I used to stick him with most of my chores around the house and in the vegetable garden. He would always cover up for me. I remember how he used to protect me from all the young "Bullies" in Roscoe. None of them dared touch me because of Tuffy - and I made sure they never forgot it!!!
When they had the Football banquet in my Sr. year of High School (I had gone out for the football team (all 115lbs of me) and stuck out the whole year altho I only got to play about 2 - 3 minutes when the game was decided (over). "Sonny" Mills the coach told me he was sorry I didn't get to play more but "Tuffy" made him promise he wouldn't put me in the game until he told him it was safe for me to go in - and since Tuffy played til the game was decided I sat on the bench.
Tuffy was picked on the first All-Mon Valley Team as a guard.
He was also picked by coaches as All WPIAL guard.
He was picked on Dartmouth College all opponent team as a Freshman at Allegheny College.
He was picked on the New York Daily Mirrors all Eastern Team as a Freshman (The sportswriter saw him play against Dartmouth and picked him on the basis of that performance).
His Charlie Chaplin imitation was a true delight for all the kids in Roscoe.
Patty and Maureen have fond memories of him and his red headed girl friend but their most vivid memory of Roscoe is of grand pap taking "grand ma's" change out of the table drawer in the kitchen and taking them over to Farquahr's store and buying them candy.
Everything in California is fine - and hardly a day passes that I don't hear some comment about your visit and about "Heidi" - she really made an impression.
Pat(sy)
Monday, March 3, 2014
The Happy Side
Week of May 18th 1981
When I write entries in this diary, I think "Eternal hour glass of existence will be turned again and again (and you with it.)" I do the same thing day after day, year after year, there is nothing new. I realize that I will have to live with every pain, sorrow, joy, sigh returning in somewhat different setting again and again. Cold day, Bobby cut grass (7.00), planted perennials. Again and again have I experienced these activities but in some instances enjoying the work, especially perennial plantings.
The same theme persists. On a cold rainy day lost myself in working with the soil (also ruined my hands and nails), again and again the same activities. In most cases working with plants helps me to be stable, but today I developed a mounting nervous tension - simply a reaction to my prison status with Daddy. I fight against this state, winning most of the time.
This was a beautiful day. Tommy Webb has had the garden plowed several times until the soil is loamy, ready to plant. He planted vegetable seeds today, carrots, beans. I planted flower seeds, zinnias in a large plot. Daddy becomes antagonistic after 6 o'clock. He definitely is retrogressing since his behavior patterns are changing. When I see him every day, it is difficult to judge extent of his illness.
Are we supposed to live in the woods like timid deer or do we live like brave people, accepting anything which comes. Today on this day with bright sunlight and with the air cleansed I feel like a new person, one who will pursue her life as she so desires. T. Webb planted tomatoes and I planted begonias (with my happy side predominant). I became happier when Ann called with refreshing news. In her new school Amy scored very high on a National Test. Rosy called - Joe has a summer job.
My philosophy did not change today. I went to Charleroi by bus, had my hair completely revitalized (colored and cut), shopped around for two hours and finally came home about 1:20. This brief excursion away from Daddy was valuable for my state of mind and from what I could judge did not hurt him one bit. I must face the reality that he is physically present but mentally absent. This is sad, especially for me but I can't live in a continuous state of unhappiness. I must find someone to laugh with or I will also become ill.
I must continue to grow freely, honestly, patiently and cheerfully. When growth ceases, I will become non-existent. I determined to try to inject some such feeling in Daddy by getting him to walk a few blocks today. He, as usual, recognized several people, he got away from his usual environment, and he saw that the world was still with us. We walked on two different occasions today. I can't see any noticeable effect for Daddy, but I know it has a therapeutic effect on me. Visited Dora this afternoon.
When I write entries in this diary, I think "Eternal hour glass of existence will be turned again and again (and you with it.)" I do the same thing day after day, year after year, there is nothing new. I realize that I will have to live with every pain, sorrow, joy, sigh returning in somewhat different setting again and again. Cold day, Bobby cut grass (7.00), planted perennials. Again and again have I experienced these activities but in some instances enjoying the work, especially perennial plantings.
The same theme persists. On a cold rainy day lost myself in working with the soil (also ruined my hands and nails), again and again the same activities. In most cases working with plants helps me to be stable, but today I developed a mounting nervous tension - simply a reaction to my prison status with Daddy. I fight against this state, winning most of the time.
This was a beautiful day. Tommy Webb has had the garden plowed several times until the soil is loamy, ready to plant. He planted vegetable seeds today, carrots, beans. I planted flower seeds, zinnias in a large plot. Daddy becomes antagonistic after 6 o'clock. He definitely is retrogressing since his behavior patterns are changing. When I see him every day, it is difficult to judge extent of his illness.
Are we supposed to live in the woods like timid deer or do we live like brave people, accepting anything which comes. Today on this day with bright sunlight and with the air cleansed I feel like a new person, one who will pursue her life as she so desires. T. Webb planted tomatoes and I planted begonias (with my happy side predominant). I became happier when Ann called with refreshing news. In her new school Amy scored very high on a National Test. Rosy called - Joe has a summer job.
My philosophy did not change today. I went to Charleroi by bus, had my hair completely revitalized (colored and cut), shopped around for two hours and finally came home about 1:20. This brief excursion away from Daddy was valuable for my state of mind and from what I could judge did not hurt him one bit. I must face the reality that he is physically present but mentally absent. This is sad, especially for me but I can't live in a continuous state of unhappiness. I must find someone to laugh with or I will also become ill.
I must continue to grow freely, honestly, patiently and cheerfully. When growth ceases, I will become non-existent. I determined to try to inject some such feeling in Daddy by getting him to walk a few blocks today. He, as usual, recognized several people, he got away from his usual environment, and he saw that the world was still with us. We walked on two different occasions today. I can't see any noticeable effect for Daddy, but I know it has a therapeutic effect on me. Visited Dora this afternoon.
Monday, February 10, 2014
Patsy
Week of May 25th, 1981
Wednesday
This rainy day suddenly became bright when I received a call from Patsy, that he would be up tomorrow early enough to go to Mass at 10. Holy day, naturally without Thekla. I could think of nothing else all day but the joy I would have in seeing him again. (This trip from California was necessary for him to be present at 50th Anniversary of his graduation from California State.)
Thursday
This day was a special one for me. Patsy with his new mustache similar to James came about 9. Although 72 in August, he has changed little physically since I saw him two years ago. He did seem a little less exuberant, but became more animated when he told me several facts about their children. Apparently California has been good for them. Daddy and I went to 10 o'clock Mass (Holy Day) sitting in the pews in front of Dora. Neither did Pat recognize Dora nor Dora recognize Pat. That error was soon rectified. Mary Nicoletto was outside the Church waiting to greet him. He stayed with us until after 3. What a joy to see him!
Friday
This day was spent partly getting ready for Pat and Thekla's visit on Sat., scheduled by Thek. I went to Charleroi, hair done, shopped for a few essentials, came home made old fashioned apricot filled cookies (especially for Pat), walked two times around the block with Daddy, and spent a little time vacuuming and dusting. At 7 o'clock (on the last discount day) paid borough taxes to Sadie Solomon. Listened to town's problems, finally ready to rest.
Saturday
A special Saturday it was. Thekla who was very loving and Pat came after 12. Thek brought me several gifts which I treasure. She had pictures of her children, her grandchildren, and her granddaughter's wedding (Patty's girl). They looked beautiful and I know that Patty will always be beautiful. I was so glad to visualize them in my own mind with the help of these photographs. We ate dinner at 4 - Thek and Patsy rinsed dishes as I got ready for 6 Mass. Daddy was a little confused, did not want to go. When they left, I had the most curious letdown - will I ever see them again? [she does, i.f.] It persisted for hours.
Sunday
Garrulous person is often a bore, and ominously a sign of old age. Tommy called and all the talking was mine. Told him every last fact about his Uncle's visit. After I put the phone down I was ashamed of myself, vowing to listen and talk little. Daddy and I took a walk before lunch and one after dinner on this beautiful day. I spent time with Dora on her front porch watching the activity on the river.
Friday, February 7, 2014
Reveling and Awestruck
I hold it true, whatever befall,
I feel it when I sorrow most
Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
Tennyson
Week of May 18th, 1981
Often when I feel sad that Daddy has been so afflicted, I remember the many happy years we had together. I'm thankful for the love we had. Today we both walked to 11:00 Mass and met Rosy driving up for us when driving home with Mary Davis. Later we went to Kroger's where I stocked up on large items. Rosy and children are leaving for Lancaster tomorrow. I would not be content if I did not hear from Katy who called in the afternoon.
Life is checkered joy and sadness. Daddy's illness, always visible, is a source of sadness, but I find joy in counting my blessings. I also involve myself in activities which are helpful. Today I cleaned the front porch, no mean task, and was outside on a beautiful May day, reveling and awestruck by works of some higher power. "World's too much with us today." I knew Rosy and children were leaving for Lancaster, happy thought. I was gladdened by a call from Tommy.
This was a signal night for the Ladies Guild, installation of new officers. Since I was relinquishing my duties as secretary of three years, I had planned to be well dressed for the occasion. All during the ceremony I was happy (in my estimation the best dressed). What a small thing to be grateful for. We had dinner in a dingy section of Charleroi Elks, but the climate was a happy one.
I feel it when I sorrow most
Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
Tennyson
Week of May 18th, 1981
Often when I feel sad that Daddy has been so afflicted, I remember the many happy years we had together. I'm thankful for the love we had. Today we both walked to 11:00 Mass and met Rosy driving up for us when driving home with Mary Davis. Later we went to Kroger's where I stocked up on large items. Rosy and children are leaving for Lancaster tomorrow. I would not be content if I did not hear from Katy who called in the afternoon.
Life is checkered joy and sadness. Daddy's illness, always visible, is a source of sadness, but I find joy in counting my blessings. I also involve myself in activities which are helpful. Today I cleaned the front porch, no mean task, and was outside on a beautiful May day, reveling and awestruck by works of some higher power. "World's too much with us today." I knew Rosy and children were leaving for Lancaster, happy thought. I was gladdened by a call from Tommy.
This was a signal night for the Ladies Guild, installation of new officers. Since I was relinquishing my duties as secretary of three years, I had planned to be well dressed for the occasion. All during the ceremony I was happy (in my estimation the best dressed). What a small thing to be grateful for. We had dinner in a dingy section of Charleroi Elks, but the climate was a happy one.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Blessed
To forgive is to join in the chorus of peace emanating from risen Jesus. John.
Hanta Yo. Clear the way.
[Fell on pavement at home July 10, 1989. Broke upper femur. Mercy and Jefferson Hospital. Rosemary's. 3 weeks care. Tom came to bring me to Washington DC (Patsy came with him). Room for me at Tommy's. Still soaking right leg. Went with Patsy to visit Mary H., Frances, and Joan -- met all their children and grandchildren. Liked Harry. Patsy and I disagreed on every subject.)
December 26, 1989
Luke stood up without help.
December 30
Back to Washington DC previous day. Annie seems to have no apparent cold but Luke still has his. Spent time checking mail. Rose sent me many Christmas cards. Tommy came and later that evening, another great time for Annie, helping to unwrap all the presents. Tom bought Judy a beautiful antique lamp and Judy bought him an unusual (beautiful) floor lamp. Such a festive time! How blessed am I with my children and grandchildren! Tommy gave me a book, Mary Gardens "The Other Side".
December 31
Erin came with her girl friend about 2. New Year came quietly.
January 3, 1990
Victoria came. Luke so happy to see her. Annie went to Ellen's--took her to library for story hour. Tom home from Conn. about 4. Warmer, 30s.
January 4
Rain, freezing in some parts. Noriega surrendered to American forces, taken to Miami to await his trial. Barbara Bush - hospitalized for Grave's disease-radiation treatment on her eyes. Sent all bills I've received from Rose. I miss seeing Rose, family and Katy but am blessed with a good son and daughter Judy. Content.
January 5 - 12
Weather little less bitter cold. Tom and Judy took Luke to Dr. -cold no congestion. 2 days later - both Annie and Luke had infected ears. Sent Kate little note and Christmas present. Sent Rose on Jan 11. Trouble with Mayor Barry and Los Angeles Post (I believe his statements were his, How could a politician be so rude?)
January 15
As day progressed -- after first aspirin--I felt somewhat better. Must remember I'm 85. Luke knows how to get up the stairs. How remarkable a human is! A baby learning all on his own.
Hanta Yo. Clear the way.
[Fell on pavement at home July 10, 1989. Broke upper femur. Mercy and Jefferson Hospital. Rosemary's. 3 weeks care. Tom came to bring me to Washington DC (Patsy came with him). Room for me at Tommy's. Still soaking right leg. Went with Patsy to visit Mary H., Frances, and Joan -- met all their children and grandchildren. Liked Harry. Patsy and I disagreed on every subject.)
December 26, 1989
Luke stood up without help.
December 30
Back to Washington DC previous day. Annie seems to have no apparent cold but Luke still has his. Spent time checking mail. Rose sent me many Christmas cards. Tommy came and later that evening, another great time for Annie, helping to unwrap all the presents. Tom bought Judy a beautiful antique lamp and Judy bought him an unusual (beautiful) floor lamp. Such a festive time! How blessed am I with my children and grandchildren! Tommy gave me a book, Mary Gardens "The Other Side".
December 31
Erin came with her girl friend about 2. New Year came quietly.
January 3, 1990
Victoria came. Luke so happy to see her. Annie went to Ellen's--took her to library for story hour. Tom home from Conn. about 4. Warmer, 30s.
January 4
Rain, freezing in some parts. Noriega surrendered to American forces, taken to Miami to await his trial. Barbara Bush - hospitalized for Grave's disease-radiation treatment on her eyes. Sent all bills I've received from Rose. I miss seeing Rose, family and Katy but am blessed with a good son and daughter Judy. Content.
January 5 - 12
Weather little less bitter cold. Tom and Judy took Luke to Dr. -cold no congestion. 2 days later - both Annie and Luke had infected ears. Sent Kate little note and Christmas present. Sent Rose on Jan 11. Trouble with Mayor Barry and Los Angeles Post (I believe his statements were his, How could a politician be so rude?)
January 15
As day progressed -- after first aspirin--I felt somewhat better. Must remember I'm 85. Luke knows how to get up the stairs. How remarkable a human is! A baby learning all on his own.
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